As we are moving forward in our lives and our following of Jesus, we are finding the cost of dwelling in the land God plants us in. This cost is way worth the product and the reward but there is still a cost. As we prepare to sell our house and eventually move to Cambodia I am reminded of this cost at every turn. I am reminded of the relationships we will be leaving behind, unfinished work that God is calling us away from, moving from one season of joy, peace, and contentment into the next season full of unknowns and I am sure lots of discomfort. There is also a slice of regret sprinkled in there because of how long we lived here in Durango without truly dwelling here, doing life with others. There are some relationships that I feel like I have missed out on how deep they could of been, or how much more I could of learned from others. I have loved living in a small town and as we move forward to a large city I find myself feeling nervous, and a little bit lost just at the idea.
I also find myself looking at the what we have spent here, our time, our money and our hearts. I feel invested in the future of our church, and little sad to not being here to see all that God has for it's future. I find myself looking to make a lasting impact in our children's ministry. Which leads me to the cost. The cost of dwelling in the land.
It cost time, time spent with people. We have had more people that we have shared meals with in this wonderful house than anywhere else we have lived. We have had more people stay with us, and even for short amount so of time call this place home.
We have experienced heartache with family of choice, and come through it with an even better understanding of our awesome God. We have cried about dreams unfulfilled and cried about dreams God is fulfilling. It costs to pack up, and leave what you have known. Especially when you have truly dwelled in the land God has planted you in. However it is so worth it, and I am excited as we enter this next season to jump in with both feet and truly dwell everywhere he leads us, even though I now understand this cost of heartache and sadness when that season ends.
Dwell where He plants you. It is worth it.